Thursday, September 22, 2011

Thankful Thursday

Thank you for:

Aidenn. My life changed so much with my unexpected pregnancy. But, I wouldn't go back to how it was before for everything. He is my life. I love everything about this kid, no matter how much I complain about his crazy sleeplessness.

My family. I seriously have the most supportive family possible without being close to any of them. I can't wait to see my mom and dad in just a few weeks! That is the best gift they could've ever given me for Christmas!

Thomas. Seriously. I don't know where I'd be without him. Yes, we have many many issues, but he has given me the ability to spend an amazing amount of time with my child and I could never thank him enough for that. Plus, you know, he gave me that kid.

CharlotteMommies and my amazing mommy friends. I really don't know what I would do without my mommies. It doesn't matter how bad of a day I'm having, what question I have, what I want to do, or anything else, I know I have 3000+ mommies I can turn to. Plus, some amazing people that I am lucky enough to call friends that I have met because of this community.

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Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Upside Down and Inside Out

As I sit here at 11:15 pm, writing this post, I can't help but wonder how my life got to where it is today. Just a few years ago I was working with some of my best friends, enjoying being almost through with nursing school, and not having a care in the world. I went out A LOT. And drank like a fish. And had a blast.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love my life now more than anything. I just wonder how I got to this point. Sitting here at 11:15 pm, watching the most ridiculous show on tv (The Upside Down Show on Nick Jr), pleading with my almost 20 month old. Pleading with him to go to bed. Pleading with him to sleep past 7 am. Pleading with him to give me just a few minutes to at least take a shower.

I really do love my life. I love that I've been given the opportunity to stay at home with such an amazing kid. To see him grow up in front of me on a daily basis. But sometimes, when he is still wide awake and all I want to do is sleep, I miss the adult part of my life. Where I would go to work and he would stay at home with a babysitter, or go to daycare, and I would get a few minutes to not have to worry about what he could possibly be getting into.

And then, just as I think that, he comes over, cuddles up, and gives me a big kiss. And I just wonder what the hell am I thinking. This is perfect. Right here with him.