I know I should be grateful for this amazing trip that my parents gave me. 28 days in Hawaii with my sweet boy is just a dream for some people. And, I am very grateful for the experience. But, every day we are here makes me realize more and more how sad I am for Aidenn.
You may think its awesome to have parents that live in Hawaii. And, it is. It's a beautiful place to visit. But, really, how often do they really think they are going to see their grandson? After next month, A has to have a plane ticket. So, it's a $2000 trip just for the flight. That doesn't include any extras.
My mom and I were talking one night and she is totally ok with seeing him only once a year. She said that she only saw her grandparents once a year so why would this be any different! Really? It makes my heart hurt for my sweet boy. And, during that once a year, they won't even change up their schedule. I mean, for the most part, A and I do our own things in the morning because even on their days off they aren't up til 10. So, we go to the beach for a couple hours because we are up at 5 or 6 and i can't keep Him quiet so they can sleep. And by the time they are ready to go do something, we are back and A is napping. They really don't get to see him until 3 or 4 pm those days.
I didn't expect them to stay in Asheville forever. But, I guess I also didn't expect them to move to Hawaii. Not just Hawaii, but they actually live on the farthest west in the country. It is closer for them to go to Japan, Australia, and Asia than it is to come to the east coast. It is closer for me to go to Europe than to come here.
Plus, Aidenn will probably grow up not knowing the majority of my family. I mean, we aren't close. So, now that we will never be at the parents' house at the same time, I really don't think we will see each other all that much. Maybe for big events, like weddings or funerals. But, other than that, probably nothing.
So, I know I should be savoring every moment here. But, I am really just sad because Aidenn is loving being with his Mimi and Saba. And, I honestly can't even think that he might not see them for an entire year. And, unlike them, I'm not ok with that, but I also can't do much about it.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Turtles, Lava, and Snorkeling
You know that old saying "Never wake a sleeping baby"? Well, I'm pretty sure that applies to toddlers also. But, after a 4 hr nap, getting up at 6 to eat dinner and hang out for a bit shouldn't have been the disaster it has become.
Aidenn decided 430 was wake up time this morning. Fortunately I was already up. This time is killing us. But, totally worth it.
We went to an awesome park that's right down the hill from my parent's house. We will definitely be frequenting it more often. A played on every single thing there and had so much fun. His favorite was the slide, but just recently he's started liking swinging.
After finally getting him to leave the park, we went to snorkel beach. Apparently, it's the crappiest beach area here, but the best underwater scenery.
The sand is a mixture of regular sand and broken up lava. All the black "rocks" are lava and super duper slippery. They make little tide pools along the water, which is great! Aidenn sat in the tide pool and filled his bucket with sand for hours!
I finally got him to get in and he loved it. So much different than this time last year when we were at the beach. He hated it then. But, these beaches really are so much different. The water is crystal clear. The water was so still so I didn't have to worry about the waves bothering him and scaring him. He jumped and played, went under, and blew bubbles.
We saw a couple of turtles in the water, which was just amazing. They swim right up to you and have no fear. At the end of the day, I finally showed A the turtle that had been hanging out on the beach the entire time we were there. Unfortunately, when they are out of the water, you have to stay 10+ feet away. So, we waited til the end of the day as to not keep him away from it all day. He was thrilled that the turtle was so close!
We ended our day with a smoothies from Jamba Juice and Aidenn was out. So, needless to say he was absolutely exhausted. And has now been crying since about 20 min after I woke him up. I guess we will be going back to bed!
More fun in the morning! :)
Aidenn decided 430 was wake up time this morning. Fortunately I was already up. This time is killing us. But, totally worth it.
We went to an awesome park that's right down the hill from my parent's house. We will definitely be frequenting it more often. A played on every single thing there and had so much fun. His favorite was the slide, but just recently he's started liking swinging.
After finally getting him to leave the park, we went to snorkel beach. Apparently, it's the crappiest beach area here, but the best underwater scenery.
The sand is a mixture of regular sand and broken up lava. All the black "rocks" are lava and super duper slippery. They make little tide pools along the water, which is great! Aidenn sat in the tide pool and filled his bucket with sand for hours!
I finally got him to get in and he loved it. So much different than this time last year when we were at the beach. He hated it then. But, these beaches really are so much different. The water is crystal clear. The water was so still so I didn't have to worry about the waves bothering him and scaring him. He jumped and played, went under, and blew bubbles.
We saw a couple of turtles in the water, which was just amazing. They swim right up to you and have no fear. At the end of the day, I finally showed A the turtle that had been hanging out on the beach the entire time we were there. Unfortunately, when they are out of the water, you have to stay 10+ feet away. So, we waited til the end of the day as to not keep him away from it all day. He was thrilled that the turtle was so close!
We ended our day with a smoothies from Jamba Juice and Aidenn was out. So, needless to say he was absolutely exhausted. And has now been crying since about 20 min after I woke him up. I guess we will be going back to bed!
More fun in the morning! :)
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Seriously amazing
So, my week has beed a little hectic and needless to say I've gotten behind on my thankful posts, so we will move on to a vacay update.
Hawaii is amazing. It's actually nothing like I imagined. But, amazing nonetheless. We traveled all day yesterday. Aidenn was surprisingly fantastic to travel with. We got to the airport at 6:45 am and he played for a bit. We left for Atlanta at 830 and he fell asleep during takeoff.
I woke him up in Atlanta and we ran through the airport. I had enough time to get his diaper changed and eat a Cliff bar before getting on the next plane. We sat next to this super cut old lady on her way to Cali to visit the grandkids. A played the entire 5 hrs to LAX. He was the entertainment of the plane and had a great time. He was absolutely amazed with the tvs in the seats. He ate pretzels, kicked back, and made a 5 hr flight look like nothing. When we got to LAX, he made a friend that chased him around the entire terminal. We quickly got his diaper changed and had a snack and got on our next plane. The last 6 hrs of our trip.
Word of advice: I love Delta, but would absolutely not recommend them from LA to Kona. Teeny tiny plane that is super overcrowded. A's new friend sat across from us and literally screamed the whole way. The dad just put on his headphones and watched Californication. Luckily, A fell asleep and was out for the first 3 hours of the flight.
I loved that after each flight I got great compliments on how well behaved he is. How sweet he is. How smart he is. How beautiful he is. It makes for one proud mama.
Aidenn was so happy to see my parents. They had a lei for me and a flower for him. He loved it and literally smelled it until he passed out in the car.
We ended up going to bed pretty early since they are 6 hrs behind here and we had a very busy day. I was surprised that A slept til 630, but it was nice.
Day 1 of our trip was amazing! We played on the porch this morning. Here is the view:
Supposedly, today is not normal and usually it's much clearer. But, it's still pretty breathtaking. We took the dogs to the fruit stand and got breakfast at Lava Java. Then spent the day at the Hilton. The pools there are amazing. They are absolutely freezing, but so much fun. We played at the beach pool. It's a kiddie pool filled with sand that connects to the regular pool. The regular pool had three different sections, waterfalls, slides, 3 hot tubs, and more. And this is just one of the pools at the hotel.
A loved the beach pool, so we spent the majority of the day filling buckets with sand, putting sand on the turtles, and jumping.
So far, I've learned:
1. A rainy day doesn't actually mean that it's going to rain. It just means it's not clear out. And this is only the 2nd time in 7 months it's been cloudy.
2. Graffiti isn't spraypainted on walls. People use white rocks on the lava to draw pics, write messages, and more.
3. Ruths Chris is totally overpriced, but great when you eat for free. I'm pretty sure we will eat there a couple times.
4. Aidenn likes island time. He was up at 630, napped at 1030, and in bed at 7.
5. You can get anything you want for free, as long as you know the right people. We have daypasses to all of the top rated resorts because my dad likes to network. He is also getting us tickets to a couple luau's and passes to the volcano.
6. Hawaii, or at least The Big Island, looks nothing like I imagined. It's all lava pits that turn into amazing resorts that are world renowned. It is beautiful. It feels like you are on another planet.
That's it for now. But, will definitely continue to update about this amazing trip that we are so lucky to be on. Now to go snuggle with my sweet boy.
Hawaii is amazing. It's actually nothing like I imagined. But, amazing nonetheless. We traveled all day yesterday. Aidenn was surprisingly fantastic to travel with. We got to the airport at 6:45 am and he played for a bit. We left for Atlanta at 830 and he fell asleep during takeoff.
I woke him up in Atlanta and we ran through the airport. I had enough time to get his diaper changed and eat a Cliff bar before getting on the next plane. We sat next to this super cut old lady on her way to Cali to visit the grandkids. A played the entire 5 hrs to LAX. He was the entertainment of the plane and had a great time. He was absolutely amazed with the tvs in the seats. He ate pretzels, kicked back, and made a 5 hr flight look like nothing. When we got to LAX, he made a friend that chased him around the entire terminal. We quickly got his diaper changed and had a snack and got on our next plane. The last 6 hrs of our trip.
Word of advice: I love Delta, but would absolutely not recommend them from LA to Kona. Teeny tiny plane that is super overcrowded. A's new friend sat across from us and literally screamed the whole way. The dad just put on his headphones and watched Californication. Luckily, A fell asleep and was out for the first 3 hours of the flight.
I loved that after each flight I got great compliments on how well behaved he is. How sweet he is. How smart he is. How beautiful he is. It makes for one proud mama.
Aidenn was so happy to see my parents. They had a lei for me and a flower for him. He loved it and literally smelled it until he passed out in the car.
We ended up going to bed pretty early since they are 6 hrs behind here and we had a very busy day. I was surprised that A slept til 630, but it was nice.
Day 1 of our trip was amazing! We played on the porch this morning. Here is the view:
Supposedly, today is not normal and usually it's much clearer. But, it's still pretty breathtaking. We took the dogs to the fruit stand and got breakfast at Lava Java. Then spent the day at the Hilton. The pools there are amazing. They are absolutely freezing, but so much fun. We played at the beach pool. It's a kiddie pool filled with sand that connects to the regular pool. The regular pool had three different sections, waterfalls, slides, 3 hot tubs, and more. And this is just one of the pools at the hotel.
A loved the beach pool, so we spent the majority of the day filling buckets with sand, putting sand on the turtles, and jumping.
So far, I've learned:
1. A rainy day doesn't actually mean that it's going to rain. It just means it's not clear out. And this is only the 2nd time in 7 months it's been cloudy.
2. Graffiti isn't spraypainted on walls. People use white rocks on the lava to draw pics, write messages, and more.
3. Ruths Chris is totally overpriced, but great when you eat for free. I'm pretty sure we will eat there a couple times.
4. Aidenn likes island time. He was up at 630, napped at 1030, and in bed at 7.
5. You can get anything you want for free, as long as you know the right people. We have daypasses to all of the top rated resorts because my dad likes to network. He is also getting us tickets to a couple luau's and passes to the volcano.
6. Hawaii, or at least The Big Island, looks nothing like I imagined. It's all lava pits that turn into amazing resorts that are world renowned. It is beautiful. It feels like you are on another planet.
That's it for now. But, will definitely continue to update about this amazing trip that we are so lucky to be on. Now to go snuggle with my sweet boy.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Day 13 {my home}
It might not be much. A 1-bedroom apartment can get really crowded really quickly with a toddler hanging around. But, I'm thankful that I'm not living on the street somewhere.
I can't wait to get the big beautiful house of my dreams. With the perfectly landscaped yard. The white picket fence. The columned doorway. The brick driveway big enough to turn around in. The master bedroom on the main floor. The nursery connected to the master so that it's easier to take care of baby.
But, until then, I will pretend that my teeny tiny 1-bedroom apartment is all that and more and be thankful for what I do have.
I can't wait to get the big beautiful house of my dreams. With the perfectly landscaped yard. The white picket fence. The columned doorway. The brick driveway big enough to turn around in. The master bedroom on the main floor. The nursery connected to the master so that it's easier to take care of baby.
But, until then, I will pretend that my teeny tiny 1-bedroom apartment is all that and more and be thankful for what I do have.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Day 12 {dark rooms}
I have had a migraine all day. And my migraines are pretty awful. Throwing up with movement, light, sound, or the threat of all of the above. So, it's pretty hard to take care of a 1 year old while it's going on. Of course, it started to back off earlier, so I decided to try to clean. Not a good idea. The cleaner made it come on even stronger than before.
So tonight, as A drinks his milk and watches Yo Gabba Gabba, I'm extremely thankful for my very dark room. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning.
So tonight, as A drinks his milk and watches Yo Gabba Gabba, I'm extremely thankful for my very dark room. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Day 11 {Our Troops}
My Papa was in the army. My brother is in the Coast Guard. My step sister is in the Coast Guard. I love this country and am so thankful for my family that helps to keep our freedoms.
Today, on Veteran's Day, we celebrate the freedoms we are allowed because of the troops that fight for our freedoms every day. A veteran is anyone that signed that paper saying they are willing to give their life so I can live mine. It doesn't matter how long they have served, the fact that they served was enough.
I am so thankful for our troops.
Today, on Veteran's Day, we celebrate the freedoms we are allowed because of the troops that fight for our freedoms every day. A veteran is anyone that signed that paper saying they are willing to give their life so I can live mine. It doesn't matter how long they have served, the fact that they served was enough.
I am so thankful for our troops.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Day 10 {Pumpkin}
Anyone that knows me knows that I'm not terribly fond of this time of year. I don't like cold weather. I despise snow when I have to be out in it. I don't care about the leaves changing colors. I hate the fact that it's light out in the mornings and I can't sleep in.
The best thing about Fall has got to be pumpkin. Coffee, pie, muffins, bread, donuts, and everything else. It is one of my favorite things ever. Even in an iced coffee (3 pumps with skim milk and sugar please), it has a warming feeling that overcomes me. The smell of pumpkin makes me want to sit in front of a fire in super warm pjs all day long. I'm in love with pumpkin.
The best thing about Fall has got to be pumpkin. Coffee, pie, muffins, bread, donuts, and everything else. It is one of my favorite things ever. Even in an iced coffee (3 pumps with skim milk and sugar please), it has a warming feeling that overcomes me. The smell of pumpkin makes me want to sit in front of a fire in super warm pjs all day long. I'm in love with pumpkin.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Day 9 {sleeping in}
It seems like a lot of my posts are about sleeping. But, really, I think it's just because I'm thankful when I actually get it since usually we are not good sleepers over here.
Last night, Aidenn finally went to bed at 1130. Yes, my 1 year old is out of control. I put him in his crib for the first time in weeks because I had to try to get some rest myself last night. I finally went to bed at 1 and knew I'd be regretting it this am. When I finally fell asleep, it was even later. Around 3, A is standing up in his crib screaming. So, I get up and let him get in the bed with me. Yet another hour to go back to sleep.
But, luckily, he decided to sleep in today. Usually he is up between 6 and 7. That makes for rough days. But, he slept until a little after 9 this morning and that makes all the difference in the world.
So thankful for sleeping in when I can!
Last night, Aidenn finally went to bed at 1130. Yes, my 1 year old is out of control. I put him in his crib for the first time in weeks because I had to try to get some rest myself last night. I finally went to bed at 1 and knew I'd be regretting it this am. When I finally fell asleep, it was even later. Around 3, A is standing up in his crib screaming. So, I get up and let him get in the bed with me. Yet another hour to go back to sleep.
But, luckily, he decided to sleep in today. Usually he is up between 6 and 7. That makes for rough days. But, he slept until a little after 9 this morning and that makes all the difference in the world.
So thankful for sleeping in when I can!
Day 8 {Mommy Friends}
I forgot to hit post yesterday, so you get this a day late :)
My mommy friends have proven to be an amazing group of women over and over again. From finding babysitters, to job searches, to needing someone to talk to at 3 am, to needing a coffee date, to carpooling, to nights out uptown, to anything else you can think of I know I can call any one of them and they will be there. I have made such an amazing group of friends since having A and I don't know what I'd do without them.
It's hard to be one of the first in your group of friends to have a child. Everything changes. And, more often than not, you get left out of a lot of things. To find such an amazing group of mommies that realize that having a child doesn't mean your life is over has been an amazing blessing!
My mommy friends have proven to be an amazing group of women over and over again. From finding babysitters, to job searches, to needing someone to talk to at 3 am, to needing a coffee date, to carpooling, to nights out uptown, to anything else you can think of I know I can call any one of them and they will be there. I have made such an amazing group of friends since having A and I don't know what I'd do without them.
It's hard to be one of the first in your group of friends to have a child. Everything changes. And, more often than not, you get left out of a lot of things. To find such an amazing group of mommies that realize that having a child doesn't mean your life is over has been an amazing blessing!
Monday, November 7, 2011
Day 7 {Play Group}
Mondays are play group days. I love Mondays. We get to hang out with our friends and get out of the house. Play group is my sanity sometimes. It allows me to relax a little. To not have to watch him every second because he is so good when he is with his friends.
There are 7 one year olds in our play group. Aidenn is the oldest. He loves his friends.
We went to the park today and they played close to each other, all on their own. And followed each other around the playground so sweetly.
Thank you play group friends for all the fun we have on Monday mornings.
There are 7 one year olds in our play group. Aidenn is the oldest. He loves his friends.
We went to the park today and they played close to each other, all on their own. And followed each other around the playground so sweetly.
Thank you play group friends for all the fun we have on Monday mornings.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Day 6 {Baby Cuddles}
I was thrilled to get a 4 hour nap in with my sweet sweet boy. I woke up to the sweetest baby in the world pushed as close to me as possible making the cutest giggles in his sleep. Nothing is better than the feeling of knowing that even in his sleep he wants to be right next to me.
I'm not a cuddler at all. I like having my own room. My own side of the bed. I can't face anyone when I sleep in fear that I will die of carbon monoxide poisoning. But, that all gets thrown out the window with this kid. I love his cuddles. I love his sweet sounds he makes while he's sleeping. I love that he has to share a pillow with me or he throws a fit. I love that he can take up my queen size bed all to himself. I love that he has to have 2 blankets and most always has one over his head. I love everything about baby cuddles!
I'm not a cuddler at all. I like having my own room. My own side of the bed. I can't face anyone when I sleep in fear that I will die of carbon monoxide poisoning. But, that all gets thrown out the window with this kid. I love his cuddles. I love his sweet sounds he makes while he's sleeping. I love that he has to share a pillow with me or he throws a fit. I love that he can take up my queen size bed all to himself. I love that he has to have 2 blankets and most always has one over his head. I love everything about baby cuddles!
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Day 5 {Chick Fil A}
I'm sure to all you non parents out there, this one seems a little silly. But sometimes I think of Chick Fil A as a Godsend. I mean, where else can you get a semi healthy lunch with an enormous fruit cup? Then, trade in the toy for an ice cream cup (learned the hard way....no more cones) so that you don't have to have yet another toy at home to find room for. And then have a super clean play area to entertain your kid for hours.
Yes, I frequent Chick Fil A on a pretty regular basis. Even if we don't eat. He plays, wears himself out, and we can get an early nap time in. And, as I've stated before, I'm always up for nap time.
Thank you Chick Fil A for providing a free play area for my child and early nap times for me.
Yes, I frequent Chick Fil A on a pretty regular basis. Even if we don't eat. He plays, wears himself out, and we can get an early nap time in. And, as I've stated before, I'm always up for nap time.
Thank you Chick Fil A for providing a free play area for my child and early nap times for me.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Day 4: Apple
I was having a great day. And then my phone completely died. I couldn't get it to charge. I couldn't get it to turn on. It was no fun. My nice relaxing night at home got put aside so I could spend a couple hours at the Apple store. They couldn't do anything with my phone either. So, now I have no pictures, no music, no contacts, no apps, nothing. But, I do have a working cell phone.
So, thank you Apple. For trying to fix my phone. For giving me a new phone for free. For having the kids area for A to play in. And for having free wifi so he could watch Dora on the iPad when he got tired of the games on the kids computers.
So, thank you Apple. For trying to fix my phone. For giving me a new phone for free. For having the kids area for A to play in. And for having free wifi so he could watch Dora on the iPad when he got tired of the games on the kids computers.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Day 3: My parents
It's late. I'm exhausted. And Aidenn decided to take a nap until 730 pm so I know we are going to have a late night. But, in 12 days, we get to see my parents and I couldn't be more excited.
Maybe it's because we will be spending a month in Hawaii. But, I like to think that some of my excitement is seeing my parents who I haven't seen since March. The mom that still feels guilty about things that weren't her fault. The dad that didn't have to be there, but when he married my mom, he raised me like I was his own. The mom that worked 3 jobs just so she could send me to gymnastics. The dad that drove 14 hours because I wanted to come home from my father's house during one of our summer visits. The parents that gave me a place to go, and a place to start over. The parents that would do anything for me, no matter how much I screw up.
Today, I'm thankful for them.
Maybe it's because we will be spending a month in Hawaii. But, I like to think that some of my excitement is seeing my parents who I haven't seen since March. The mom that still feels guilty about things that weren't her fault. The dad that didn't have to be there, but when he married my mom, he raised me like I was his own. The mom that worked 3 jobs just so she could send me to gymnastics. The dad that drove 14 hours because I wanted to come home from my father's house during one of our summer visits. The parents that gave me a place to go, and a place to start over. The parents that would do anything for me, no matter how much I screw up.
Today, I'm thankful for them.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Nap Time
I planned on going to bed early last night. Aidenn went to bed at 1030, which is great for him. I planned on going to bed after doing the dishes. Then I got sidetracked. So, at 1 am, I was getting ready for bed and realized a friend of mine was on Skype. Next thing I know, it's 315 am and we are still talking about crazies, special snowflakes, immigration, and anything else you can think of.
So today, I am thankful for naptime. I know that I probably have no hopes of getting one today. But, just the thought that I might be able to take a 15 minute break at some point today without having to entertain a very clingy 21 month old makes my day.
So today, I am thankful for naptime. I know that I probably have no hopes of getting one today. But, just the thought that I might be able to take a 15 minute break at some point today without having to entertain a very clingy 21 month old makes my day.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Hello November
Can you believe it's already Novemer? This year has flown by. In the past year so much has happened. It really is true when people tell you that time flies after having kids. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was getting ready to go to the hospital to be induced and now I have an almost 2 year old on my hands.
This month, I will be highlighting some of the things I'm thankful for.
Day 1 of A Month Of Thanks has to be Aidenn. He is my life. He is a pain in the butt, and way too fond of the word no, and makes a mess of absolutely everything. He is curious, loves to learn, and not afraid of anything. He is the most amazing cuddled and gives the best hugs and kisses. He is funny, sweet, and oh so smart. He is life changing. And, he is the best thing that ever happened to me.
This month, I will be highlighting some of the things I'm thankful for.
Day 1 of A Month Of Thanks has to be Aidenn. He is my life. He is a pain in the butt, and way too fond of the word no, and makes a mess of absolutely everything. He is curious, loves to learn, and not afraid of anything. He is the most amazing cuddled and gives the best hugs and kisses. He is funny, sweet, and oh so smart. He is life changing. And, he is the best thing that ever happened to me.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Thankful Thursday
Thank you for:
Aidenn. My life changed so much with my unexpected pregnancy. But, I wouldn't go back to how it was before for everything. He is my life. I love everything about this kid, no matter how much I complain about his crazy sleeplessness.
My family. I seriously have the most supportive family possible without being close to any of them. I can't wait to see my mom and dad in just a few weeks! That is the best gift they could've ever given me for Christmas!
Thomas. Seriously. I don't know where I'd be without him. Yes, we have many many issues, but he has given me the ability to spend an amazing amount of time with my child and I could never thank him enough for that. Plus, you know, he gave me that kid.
CharlotteMommies and my amazing mommy friends. I really don't know what I would do without my mommies. It doesn't matter how bad of a day I'm having, what question I have, what I want to do, or anything else, I know I have 3000+ mommies I can turn to. Plus, some amazing people that I am lucky enough to call friends that I have met because of this community.
Aidenn. My life changed so much with my unexpected pregnancy. But, I wouldn't go back to how it was before for everything. He is my life. I love everything about this kid, no matter how much I complain about his crazy sleeplessness.
My family. I seriously have the most supportive family possible without being close to any of them. I can't wait to see my mom and dad in just a few weeks! That is the best gift they could've ever given me for Christmas!
Thomas. Seriously. I don't know where I'd be without him. Yes, we have many many issues, but he has given me the ability to spend an amazing amount of time with my child and I could never thank him enough for that. Plus, you know, he gave me that kid.
CharlotteMommies and my amazing mommy friends. I really don't know what I would do without my mommies. It doesn't matter how bad of a day I'm having, what question I have, what I want to do, or anything else, I know I have 3000+ mommies I can turn to. Plus, some amazing people that I am lucky enough to call friends that I have met because of this community.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Upside Down and Inside Out
As I sit here at 11:15 pm, writing this post, I can't help but wonder how my life got to where it is today. Just a few years ago I was working with some of my best friends, enjoying being almost through with nursing school, and not having a care in the world. I went out A LOT. And drank like a fish. And had a blast.
Now, don't get me wrong. I love my life now more than anything. I just wonder how I got to this point. Sitting here at 11:15 pm, watching the most ridiculous show on tv (The Upside Down Show on Nick Jr), pleading with my almost 20 month old. Pleading with him to go to bed. Pleading with him to sleep past 7 am. Pleading with him to give me just a few minutes to at least take a shower.
I really do love my life. I love that I've been given the opportunity to stay at home with such an amazing kid. To see him grow up in front of me on a daily basis. But sometimes, when he is still wide awake and all I want to do is sleep, I miss the adult part of my life. Where I would go to work and he would stay at home with a babysitter, or go to daycare, and I would get a few minutes to not have to worry about what he could possibly be getting into.
And then, just as I think that, he comes over, cuddles up, and gives me a big kiss. And I just wonder what the hell am I thinking. This is perfect. Right here with him.
Now, don't get me wrong. I love my life now more than anything. I just wonder how I got to this point. Sitting here at 11:15 pm, watching the most ridiculous show on tv (The Upside Down Show on Nick Jr), pleading with my almost 20 month old. Pleading with him to go to bed. Pleading with him to sleep past 7 am. Pleading with him to give me just a few minutes to at least take a shower.
I really do love my life. I love that I've been given the opportunity to stay at home with such an amazing kid. To see him grow up in front of me on a daily basis. But sometimes, when he is still wide awake and all I want to do is sleep, I miss the adult part of my life. Where I would go to work and he would stay at home with a babysitter, or go to daycare, and I would get a few minutes to not have to worry about what he could possibly be getting into.
And then, just as I think that, he comes over, cuddles up, and gives me a big kiss. And I just wonder what the hell am I thinking. This is perfect. Right here with him.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Back in the kitchen!
I'm so excited to say that I've been baking a lot lately! I've been looking up lots of recipes so Aidenn doesn't eat all the processed nastiness out there. He is loving the homemade goodies more than me.
Today, I am working on some "poptarts," "hot pockets," granola bars, and maybe some other stuff. The great thing is that everything freezes great! So I'm making huge portions, throwing most in the freezer, and not having to worry about it for a while.
I'm also so excited about my custom ELH diaper shipping today! I won it on a Facebook giveaway and she posted the pictures today. It turned out amazing! I can't wait to try it out and let everyone know how it compares.
Isn't it amazing?
Off to celebrate my birthday with my sweet boy by making him lots of yummy snacks!
Today, I am working on some "poptarts," "hot pockets," granola bars, and maybe some other stuff. The great thing is that everything freezes great! So I'm making huge portions, throwing most in the freezer, and not having to worry about it for a while.
I'm also so excited about my custom ELH diaper shipping today! I won it on a Facebook giveaway and she posted the pictures today. It turned out amazing! I can't wait to try it out and let everyone know how it compares.
Isn't it amazing?
Off to celebrate my birthday with my sweet boy by making him lots of yummy snacks!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
My big boy!
This has been a very eventful couple of weeks. I babysat a lot these past few weeks. It's been a pleasant break today of not having to work. But, I love my "job"!
Aidenn has been a mess. He is seriously all boy and wearing me down little by little. The hitting. The screaming. The biting. Just when I think I can't take any more and I just want to sit down and cry, he comes over and gives me a big hug and kiss and just turns into the sweet boy that I know is in there somewhere.
We got some pics done this weekend that I fell in love with! He was totally uncooperative. It was late in the day and he decided he wanted every prop possible in the pics. Even the tutus. I was totally surprised that we actually got a lot of good pics! Here's a little preview:
We ended up laying low for the 4th. It was super nasty out and we ended up taking a very late nap. Yes, we. But, it was perfect. And, on our way home from Papa's, we got to see tons of fireworks. They were awesome!
Oh, and, we decided it was time for the first haircut. It had to be done (see above pics for curly mess)! So, here's my new big boy:
He thinks he is such a big boy now, too.
Aidenn has been a mess. He is seriously all boy and wearing me down little by little. The hitting. The screaming. The biting. Just when I think I can't take any more and I just want to sit down and cry, he comes over and gives me a big hug and kiss and just turns into the sweet boy that I know is in there somewhere.
We got some pics done this weekend that I fell in love with! He was totally uncooperative. It was late in the day and he decided he wanted every prop possible in the pics. Even the tutus. I was totally surprised that we actually got a lot of good pics! Here's a little preview:
We ended up laying low for the 4th. It was super nasty out and we ended up taking a very late nap. Yes, we. But, it was perfect. And, on our way home from Papa's, we got to see tons of fireworks. They were awesome!
Oh, and, we decided it was time for the first haircut. It had to be done (see above pics for curly mess)! So, here's my new big boy:
He thinks he is such a big boy now, too.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
To prefold or not to prefold
Now that we are 100% confident in our cloth diapering technique, I am really thinking about venturing out and trying new types. Currently, we use only Kawaii pockets. Although we love our diapers so much, I have noticed that I have my favorites. We have bamboo, microsuede, and microfleece diapers. We have heavywetter nighttimes, super trim daytimes, Velcro closures, snap closures, round tabs, and square tabs. We have minky and non minky. We have such a great assortment. And, although they are all great, I definitely always choose certain ones if they are clean.
But, I'd really like to try other brands or types. Which is why I'm so very excited about this week's Thirsties Thursday giveaway! They are giving away 2 prefolds and a wrap to next week's winner. How awesome!
Prefolds are probably the diapers that I'm most scared of trying. I mean, they just look scary. For those of you that don't know what a prefolds is, it's the old fashioned cloth diaper. The one that most people think of when you bring up cloth.
I really want to try these, mainly because of the price! $2ish dollars for a great one! That is amazing!
Hopefully I will win one in this giveaway so I am able to try them out and build my confidence!
You should enter, too! Here's the link:
http://www.thirstiesbaby.com/blog/thirsties-thursday-giveaway-3/#comment-1629
But, I'd really like to try other brands or types. Which is why I'm so very excited about this week's Thirsties Thursday giveaway! They are giving away 2 prefolds and a wrap to next week's winner. How awesome!
Prefolds are probably the diapers that I'm most scared of trying. I mean, they just look scary. For those of you that don't know what a prefolds is, it's the old fashioned cloth diaper. The one that most people think of when you bring up cloth.
I really want to try these, mainly because of the price! $2ish dollars for a great one! That is amazing!
Hopefully I will win one in this giveaway so I am able to try them out and build my confidence!
You should enter, too! Here's the link:
http://www.thirstiesbaby.com/blog/thirsties-thursday-giveaway-3/#comment-1629
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Tales of a Cloth Diapering Addict
I am so in love with our cloth diapers. I love everything about them, from the money saving aspects, to the super cute designs, to the green aspects.
This past weekend, I went to a cloth diapering 101 class held by Jack Be Natural (www.JackBeNatural.com). I have been using all pocket diapers so far, but I wanted to learn about other types and make sure that what I have is really what I want. I must say, I am floored by all the cloth diapers that are available. There is no way someone can tell me that cloth diapering is too expensive! Or hard! Seriously, with prefolds being so cheap, anyone can do this! Maybe some people find it a little intimidating at first, but really, there's nothing to it.
Especially with the pocket diapers I use! You just snap/Velcro them on and they are simular to disposable diapers....besides the fact that you wash them after use and can use them all over again.
Don't believe me about the savings? Let me give you an example. I spent $100 on 12 pocket diapers. At the same time, I bought a box of diapers for $40. Usually, this box lasts us about a week and a half. Two weeks if we are lucky. I currently still have over half of the box of disposables (I use some while waiting for these to ship and a couple while getting my washing schedule figured out). So, for the 2 months we've been back on cloth, we spent $120ish (counting the half a box of sposies that I used). Had it just been disposables, we would have spent $160! In two months our savings is evident!
Soon we will also be switching to cloth wipes! That means even more savings. And, you van just use baby washcloths if you don't want to spend the money on wipes. How awesome is that?
Plus, really, they are just so cute!
Still not sure if cloth diapering is for you? Why not try to win one in the Thirsties Thursday giveaway and try them out for free? Here's the link! It's super easy to enter and you win 2 diapers if you are chosen!
http://www.thirstiesbaby.com/blog/thirsties-thursday-giveaway-2/#comment-1494
This past weekend, I went to a cloth diapering 101 class held by Jack Be Natural (www.JackBeNatural.com). I have been using all pocket diapers so far, but I wanted to learn about other types and make sure that what I have is really what I want. I must say, I am floored by all the cloth diapers that are available. There is no way someone can tell me that cloth diapering is too expensive! Or hard! Seriously, with prefolds being so cheap, anyone can do this! Maybe some people find it a little intimidating at first, but really, there's nothing to it.
Especially with the pocket diapers I use! You just snap/Velcro them on and they are simular to disposable diapers....besides the fact that you wash them after use and can use them all over again.
Don't believe me about the savings? Let me give you an example. I spent $100 on 12 pocket diapers. At the same time, I bought a box of diapers for $40. Usually, this box lasts us about a week and a half. Two weeks if we are lucky. I currently still have over half of the box of disposables (I use some while waiting for these to ship and a couple while getting my washing schedule figured out). So, for the 2 months we've been back on cloth, we spent $120ish (counting the half a box of sposies that I used). Had it just been disposables, we would have spent $160! In two months our savings is evident!
Soon we will also be switching to cloth wipes! That means even more savings. And, you van just use baby washcloths if you don't want to spend the money on wipes. How awesome is that?
Plus, really, they are just so cute!
Still not sure if cloth diapering is for you? Why not try to win one in the Thirsties Thursday giveaway and try them out for free? Here's the link! It's super easy to enter and you win 2 diapers if you are chosen!
http://www.thirstiesbaby.com/blog/thirsties-thursday-giveaway-2/#comment-1494
Sunday, June 12, 2011
156 Days!
That's right! Only 156 days until I get to spend a glorious 30 days in Kona, Hawaii! It's ok, you can be jealous. If I were you I would be.
So, on that note, I really need to lose all this extra weight. Really. Really. Badly. It's just not even an option anymore. I have tried everything from weight watchers, to diet pills, to weight management doctors with the good drugs. I just don't have the motivation to stick with anything. So, that's where all of you come in. I need you to keep me motivated! I need you to hold me accountable. I need you to send me words of encouragement.
I joined My Fitness Pal. I am currently tracking workouts and food through the iPod app, which is pretty awesome. I started this am, so we will see how well I can keep up with it.
I went to the fitness center at my apartment complex for the first time this morning. I must say, I was thoroughly disappointed, but it will have to do. It just feels so cramped and close together. I will just have to make sure I go when no one else is there for the time being. The good thing is that o can hook my iPhone right into the speaker system and blast the music as loud as I want since it's a sound proof room. Definitely a plus!
So, here's what I am asking of everyone! I need some great workout music! And some delicious recipes! Feel free to leave them in comments here, send me an email, or shoot me a message on Facebook!
So, on that note, I really need to lose all this extra weight. Really. Really. Badly. It's just not even an option anymore. I have tried everything from weight watchers, to diet pills, to weight management doctors with the good drugs. I just don't have the motivation to stick with anything. So, that's where all of you come in. I need you to keep me motivated! I need you to hold me accountable. I need you to send me words of encouragement.
I joined My Fitness Pal. I am currently tracking workouts and food through the iPod app, which is pretty awesome. I started this am, so we will see how well I can keep up with it.
I went to the fitness center at my apartment complex for the first time this morning. I must say, I was thoroughly disappointed, but it will have to do. It just feels so cramped and close together. I will just have to make sure I go when no one else is there for the time being. The good thing is that o can hook my iPhone right into the speaker system and blast the music as loud as I want since it's a sound proof room. Definitely a plus!
So, here's what I am asking of everyone! I need some great workout music! And some delicious recipes! Feel free to leave them in comments here, send me an email, or shoot me a message on Facebook!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Loving it
I must say that I am absolutely loving having Aidenn back in cloth diapers. Not only is his fluffy butt so darn cute, but I can't even imagine the savings. We switche from cloth to sposies when Aidenn started daycare. But, now that I am home with him, it only made sense to switch back. We bought 12 Kawaii pocket diapers and are loving it! We still need a few more to get the stash complete, but we are 99.9% back in cloth.
Other than that, our life has been pretty uneventful lately...which is more than nice. I have been babysitting some of the sweetest kids about 4 or 5 days a week. It's so nice being able to take Aidenn to "work" with me. I also took on a co-hospitality manager position on CharlotteMommies.com and an admin manager on The Mommies Network. I love being able to see different aspects of this amazing company!
Oh, and the best part about babysitting you ask? Well, it could be that potty training one kid will help to potty train Aidenn....super early. Don't believe me? Take a look!
Other than that, our life has been pretty uneventful lately...which is more than nice. I have been babysitting some of the sweetest kids about 4 or 5 days a week. It's so nice being able to take Aidenn to "work" with me. I also took on a co-hospitality manager position on CharlotteMommies.com and an admin manager on The Mommies Network. I love being able to see different aspects of this amazing company!
Oh, and the best part about babysitting you ask? Well, it could be that potty training one kid will help to potty train Aidenn....super early. Don't believe me? Take a look!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
The Move!
As I sit on my couch in my new apartment and look at the dining room full of boxes I still have to unpack, I feel nothing but relief. I loved getting away for 8 months, getting to be close to my parents for a while, making some amazing friends, and learning that I'm ok by myself. But now, being back here, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It is so nice being here with so much support from everyone.
And, I am absolutely in love with my new apartment. It's on a different side of town than I am used to, but it's nice. I love being close to pretty much everything. I can't wait to get settled in so that I can get out and see/do everything.
It is such a daunting task to come back and start over. Again. But I'm beginning to believe that it's going to be ok. I am still looking for a job. But I'm enjoying my time with Aidenn so much while I actually have it. I just wish it was something I could always do.
And, I am absolutely in love with my new apartment. It's on a different side of town than I am used to, but it's nice. I love being close to pretty much everything. I can't wait to get settled in so that I can get out and see/do everything.
It is such a daunting task to come back and start over. Again. But I'm beginning to believe that it's going to be ok. I am still looking for a job. But I'm enjoying my time with Aidenn so much while I actually have it. I just wish it was something I could always do.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
New York, New York and an Indian Wedding
Wow, it's been such a busy week! I don't even know where to start.
Last Wednesday, after the continued drama at my house, we decided to leave a little early for NY. So, we packed up the car, packed up the baby, and hit the road. Aidenn did some awesome traveling! He slept until we hit a gas station around 2 am. Woke up, ate, got changed, talked for a little bit, then back to sleep. He woke up for breakfast and then slept the rest of the way. Luckily, our awesome hotel let us check in early and we got some awesome naps.
The Sangeet was Thursday night. It was amazing. We ended up only staying for a little over an hour because it was way past bedtime for the little monster, but it was such a fun night. A couple glasses of wine and some awesome Indian food and I was happy. Until I found out we missed the amazing dinner that was to follow! Guarang and Komal looked amazing and so happy.
Friday morning was the first ceremony, the Sikh ceremony. It was, yet again, amazing. We got there in the morning and the boys all met outside and it was just a fun party like atmosphere with all the dancing and drumming. We finally made it inside and got to have breakfast with all the guests and the groom. Luckily we got a sneak peak of Komal running in and she looked so beautiful. Aidenn was having so much fun and decided he was going to clean up everyone's trash. So, he went person to person and collected trash and took it to the trash can. Such a sweet boy. We didn't actually make it to the ceremony because my sweet boy needed a nap after the dancing and full belly. But, we did get to see Komal walk in with her parents before we left.
Unfortunately we didn't make it to the Hindu ceremony later that evening because it was after bedtime again. We both passed out super early in hopes that we could get up early the next morning for a day in the city. We had a blast. We walked 5+ miles to get a couple purses in China Town, had a picnic in Central Park, met Big Bird and Elmo, played on the floor piano from Big in FAO Schwarz, and visited Times Square. It was such a great day!
Saturday night was the reception, so Aidenn and I enjoyed a night in. It was late at night, so we went to bed early instead. The next day, after saying all of our goodbyes, we started back to Asheville. We detoured to Philly and got some cheese steaks on the way!
We made it back Monday morning and slept all day to catch up! It was a much needed trip and it was amazing to see some friends that I feel like we haven't seen in so long.
Aidenn got a stuffed dog from FAO that he loves more than anything. He sleeps with it at night now. He carries it around and gives it hugs and kisses and feeds it all of his food. He is so sweet.
In other news, we are moving back to Charlotte! Like, next week! It's going to be a great move for us and I'm looking forward to it more than anything. We got an awesome apartment in a great area and can't wait to see what adventures come up next.
Last Wednesday, after the continued drama at my house, we decided to leave a little early for NY. So, we packed up the car, packed up the baby, and hit the road. Aidenn did some awesome traveling! He slept until we hit a gas station around 2 am. Woke up, ate, got changed, talked for a little bit, then back to sleep. He woke up for breakfast and then slept the rest of the way. Luckily, our awesome hotel let us check in early and we got some awesome naps.
The Sangeet was Thursday night. It was amazing. We ended up only staying for a little over an hour because it was way past bedtime for the little monster, but it was such a fun night. A couple glasses of wine and some awesome Indian food and I was happy. Until I found out we missed the amazing dinner that was to follow! Guarang and Komal looked amazing and so happy.
Friday morning was the first ceremony, the Sikh ceremony. It was, yet again, amazing. We got there in the morning and the boys all met outside and it was just a fun party like atmosphere with all the dancing and drumming. We finally made it inside and got to have breakfast with all the guests and the groom. Luckily we got a sneak peak of Komal running in and she looked so beautiful. Aidenn was having so much fun and decided he was going to clean up everyone's trash. So, he went person to person and collected trash and took it to the trash can. Such a sweet boy. We didn't actually make it to the ceremony because my sweet boy needed a nap after the dancing and full belly. But, we did get to see Komal walk in with her parents before we left.
Unfortunately we didn't make it to the Hindu ceremony later that evening because it was after bedtime again. We both passed out super early in hopes that we could get up early the next morning for a day in the city. We had a blast. We walked 5+ miles to get a couple purses in China Town, had a picnic in Central Park, met Big Bird and Elmo, played on the floor piano from Big in FAO Schwarz, and visited Times Square. It was such a great day!
Aidenn got a stuffed dog from FAO that he loves more than anything. He sleeps with it at night now. He carries it around and gives it hugs and kisses and feeds it all of his food. He is so sweet.
In other news, we are moving back to Charlotte! Like, next week! It's going to be a great move for us and I'm looking forward to it more than anything. We got an awesome apartment in a great area and can't wait to see what adventures come up next.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
When Oh When?
Everyone says the first year is the worst with illnesses. That, with daycare and being exposed to anything and everything, he will catch everything that is even remotely close to him.
Well, so far, we haven't caught anything from daycare at all. Yeah, there's the occasional common cold, but I'm sure I bring home more germs that he has picked up from daycare. But, his ears are going to be the death of me.
I feel like I've been to the doctor every week lately. In January, he got an ear infection, so we started an antibiotic. About 2 weeks later, in February, it was RSV. His ears weren't 100% better, but they decided that worrying about the RSV was a little more important at the time. Mid March, another ear infection. Another antibiotic and another 10 days of trying to get him to take it. Then, 2 weeks later, back to the doctor because he's pulling at his ears or walking around the house saying "Ow" and pushing on his ear. See the trend here?
Well, they said his ears were fine and prescribe him some Claritin for allergies since the Zyrtec isn't working. Really? After 8 months of this, it's time for a 2nd and 3rd opinion. We had our appointment at the ENT's office today. It wasn't so great. His right ear is still really red and he thinks there is some fluid in it. For this, we are on a much stronger antibiotic for 31 days! And, it's going to most likely cause diarrhea. Great, just what I need.
In 5 weeks, we have to go back to the ENT for a hearing test, a tympanogram, and another check up. If we don't start moving in the right direction, my poor sweet boy will be getting tubes.
Next week, we are going to the allergist to have some allergy testing done and see if we can get the allergies under control.
Maybe, just maybe, after a month of antibiotics, some new allergy meds, and tons of doctors appointments, we can get over all this sickness! Really considering picking up and moving to the beach tomorrow to make it all better.
Well, so far, we haven't caught anything from daycare at all. Yeah, there's the occasional common cold, but I'm sure I bring home more germs that he has picked up from daycare. But, his ears are going to be the death of me.
I feel like I've been to the doctor every week lately. In January, he got an ear infection, so we started an antibiotic. About 2 weeks later, in February, it was RSV. His ears weren't 100% better, but they decided that worrying about the RSV was a little more important at the time. Mid March, another ear infection. Another antibiotic and another 10 days of trying to get him to take it. Then, 2 weeks later, back to the doctor because he's pulling at his ears or walking around the house saying "Ow" and pushing on his ear. See the trend here?
Well, they said his ears were fine and prescribe him some Claritin for allergies since the Zyrtec isn't working. Really? After 8 months of this, it's time for a 2nd and 3rd opinion. We had our appointment at the ENT's office today. It wasn't so great. His right ear is still really red and he thinks there is some fluid in it. For this, we are on a much stronger antibiotic for 31 days! And, it's going to most likely cause diarrhea. Great, just what I need.
In 5 weeks, we have to go back to the ENT for a hearing test, a tympanogram, and another check up. If we don't start moving in the right direction, my poor sweet boy will be getting tubes.
Next week, we are going to the allergist to have some allergy testing done and see if we can get the allergies under control.
Maybe, just maybe, after a month of antibiotics, some new allergy meds, and tons of doctors appointments, we can get over all this sickness! Really considering picking up and moving to the beach tomorrow to make it all better.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
First Words
First words are so exciting. Aidenn is currently saying a couple things: mama, dada, more, and that.
Today, I picked him up from daycare, and he comes up to me and is pointing and saying "that". I had no clue what he was pointing at. It was a nod and smile moment. Both his teachers just laughed....I guess they knew what was on his mind. So, I'm getting his stuff together and he's still pointing. I go over to where he is pointing at something, he looks up at the shelf, and says "bubble"! And, yes, he was pointing at the bubbles!
Every new word is just an amazing thing. I wish I could remember how proud of him that one simple word made me in 10-15 years when he is getting in trouble. To just be able to think back to that moment today and how happy I was to hear the word bubble. There's nothing like it.
He's also just so smart. Yesterday he didn't know the sign for hungry. So, instead, he improvised. He pointed to his tummy, did the sign for more, and then pointed to his mouth. I couldn't believe it, because he actually figured out a way to tell me. We will definitely working on the sign for hungry next, though.
On another note, I have an interview tomorrow. This interview will basically make my decision as to if I stay in Asheville or not. I am not making any money here at all, so this will be a huge decision. After rent, daycare, and babysitter, I only have about $100 a month. This new job will give me another $3/hr, plus a set schedule, plus more opportunity to grow. I have been pretty much guaranteed this job by the director, but I have to get through the manager first. So, wish me lots of luck.
Today, I picked him up from daycare, and he comes up to me and is pointing and saying "that". I had no clue what he was pointing at. It was a nod and smile moment. Both his teachers just laughed....I guess they knew what was on his mind. So, I'm getting his stuff together and he's still pointing. I go over to where he is pointing at something, he looks up at the shelf, and says "bubble"! And, yes, he was pointing at the bubbles!
Every new word is just an amazing thing. I wish I could remember how proud of him that one simple word made me in 10-15 years when he is getting in trouble. To just be able to think back to that moment today and how happy I was to hear the word bubble. There's nothing like it.
He's also just so smart. Yesterday he didn't know the sign for hungry. So, instead, he improvised. He pointed to his tummy, did the sign for more, and then pointed to his mouth. I couldn't believe it, because he actually figured out a way to tell me. We will definitely working on the sign for hungry next, though.
On another note, I have an interview tomorrow. This interview will basically make my decision as to if I stay in Asheville or not. I am not making any money here at all, so this will be a huge decision. After rent, daycare, and babysitter, I only have about $100 a month. This new job will give me another $3/hr, plus a set schedule, plus more opportunity to grow. I have been pretty much guaranteed this job by the director, but I have to get through the manager first. So, wish me lots of luck.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
The Mommies Network's "Only Fools Text and Drive" Day
This April Fools’ Day, The Mommies Network would like national community support in making it an official “Only Fools Text and Drive Day”. By launching a video where children tell parents how they feel about texting and driving, and passing it along through their 25,000+ members nationwide, they intend to do just that. To pass along the message that “Texting and Driving is For Fools”, the video encourages everyone to drive with their headlights on April 1, 2011.
Watch the video below and share it with your friends and family as a reminder not to text and drive!
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Sunday, March 13, 2011
PCOS.....or as I like to call it, HELL.
As of last week, I found out I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). What is this you may ask? Well, I'll tell you.
Basically, there are three hormones in women: estrogen, progesterone, and androgens. During a normal month in a normal female, small fibers form on her ovaries. When they reach 10 mm, the hormones cause these fibers to come off the ovaries, making ovulation happen. In someone with PCOS, since her hormones are out of balance, the fibers don't come off the ovaries. Also, because the fibers don't come off, the woman's eggs never mature.
Usually, this is caused by SOMETHING. Insulin levels are too high. Thyroid is not working. Pituitary hormones are out of whack. Something.
So, I go to the doctor last week because I have still not gotten a regular post partum period. I have it for a month, go another 6 months, have it again, etc. I have had 3 total in 14 months. They draw lots and lots of labs. Like, 7 tubes of blood. Then, they did an ultrasound, which was so uncomfortable. I have never had an internal ultrasound and I did not like it. It hurt.
My labs came back perfect. No issues with my thyroid, pituitary, glucose, insulin, nothing. The only problem is that my FSH and LH levels are reversed, which is normal for PCOS. Then we looked at my ultrasound, which apparently was absolutely horrible. Like, he was in shock that I could have so many fibers on my ovaries.
What does that mean for me? Well, since most people that have PCOS have a cause for it, they can take something to fix it. Since all my labs are perfect, I have more issues than that.
Did I mention that I'm not going to ovulate on a regular basis. So, if I want to have more kids (which, for anyone that knows me knows I do), it will be incredibly hard if not impossible. Seriously. I can't handle this. My doctor kept asking me if it was hard to get pregnant with Aidenn. Honestly, although we weren't trying, I should have been pregnant way before I actually was. So, I guess it was. It took 5 years if you look at it that way.
I am crushed. I want a little girl so bad. I love having a boy, but I want a little girl to dress up in tutus, oversized flower headbands, and ballerina pink. I am so upset that this is possibly never going to happen. I know that it's not 100% that I will not be able to have another baby, but it's in the 90 and above %s. That's hard to take. So hard.
So, if I've seemed sad, out of the ordinary, standoffish, etc, you now know why. I am mourning the loss of a child that is nowhere near being brought in this world.
On another note, we got bunny pictures back today. This is the only one I bought, but we had so much fun. Enjoy!
Basically, there are three hormones in women: estrogen, progesterone, and androgens. During a normal month in a normal female, small fibers form on her ovaries. When they reach 10 mm, the hormones cause these fibers to come off the ovaries, making ovulation happen. In someone with PCOS, since her hormones are out of balance, the fibers don't come off the ovaries. Also, because the fibers don't come off, the woman's eggs never mature.
Usually, this is caused by SOMETHING. Insulin levels are too high. Thyroid is not working. Pituitary hormones are out of whack. Something.
So, I go to the doctor last week because I have still not gotten a regular post partum period. I have it for a month, go another 6 months, have it again, etc. I have had 3 total in 14 months. They draw lots and lots of labs. Like, 7 tubes of blood. Then, they did an ultrasound, which was so uncomfortable. I have never had an internal ultrasound and I did not like it. It hurt.
My labs came back perfect. No issues with my thyroid, pituitary, glucose, insulin, nothing. The only problem is that my FSH and LH levels are reversed, which is normal for PCOS. Then we looked at my ultrasound, which apparently was absolutely horrible. Like, he was in shock that I could have so many fibers on my ovaries.
What does that mean for me? Well, since most people that have PCOS have a cause for it, they can take something to fix it. Since all my labs are perfect, I have more issues than that.
Did I mention that I'm not going to ovulate on a regular basis. So, if I want to have more kids (which, for anyone that knows me knows I do), it will be incredibly hard if not impossible. Seriously. I can't handle this. My doctor kept asking me if it was hard to get pregnant with Aidenn. Honestly, although we weren't trying, I should have been pregnant way before I actually was. So, I guess it was. It took 5 years if you look at it that way.
I am crushed. I want a little girl so bad. I love having a boy, but I want a little girl to dress up in tutus, oversized flower headbands, and ballerina pink. I am so upset that this is possibly never going to happen. I know that it's not 100% that I will not be able to have another baby, but it's in the 90 and above %s. That's hard to take. So hard.
So, if I've seemed sad, out of the ordinary, standoffish, etc, you now know why. I am mourning the loss of a child that is nowhere near being brought in this world.
On another note, we got bunny pictures back today. This is the only one I bought, but we had so much fun. Enjoy!
Friday, March 11, 2011
And so it begins....
This past 1+ year has flown by. And, it's only going to get worse. I want to be able to remember everything. All the big milestones. The firsts. The lasts.
So, the backstory. Almost 14 months ago I gave birth to the most amazing little boy in the world and my entire life changed. My priorities changed immediately. He is the most important thing to me.
My labor was quick, but stressful. It seemed like everything was going to go wrong that morning. It started off with being induced, then on to meconium staining, him not turning in the right direction or dropping, the cord wrapped around his neck, and so on. But, we'll save that for another post.
Soon after his birth, I became a single mom in a new town that I disliked more than anything. We moved to Asheville, NC. And, for anyone that knows me, you now that I hate snow and mountains and cold. But, luckily, I found an amazing group of mommies to get me through some of the hardest times of my life.
On top of that, my parents decided to move to Hawaii. They are the reason I came here. I knew I needed some help to get back on my feet. So, I did it. My family is not close at all, but the fact that I came here to have them decide to move across the country is a little overwhelming.
A few months after getting to Asheville, I found an apartment. My best friend at the time talked her parents into renting to me. They have an awesome basement apartment. Aidenn and I love the apartment, but the friendship dwindled. She got angry because I very so nicely let her know that I couldn't have her babysit anymore due to Aidenn's allergies. My child's health and safety is my only concern these days. If her husband's smoking is going to cause Aidenn to be sick constantly, then I'm going to take him out of that situation. What mother wouldn't? Well, I guess that wasn't understandable, and instead of talking to me about it, she dropped me altogether-which shows me we really weren't friends in the first place.
Then, on top of everything, I find out that I may not be able to have any more children. That's right. My world crashed down on me that day. I want to have a little girl to dress up in tutus, oversized flower headbands, and everything pink one day. I love my little boy and don't know what I would do without him, but I want a girl now. So bad. And, to find out that this may not be a possibility is just heartbreaking. I cry every time I think about it. Again, that will be another day and another post.
In the past year, I have had life-changing experiences. From having the most amazing child possible, to making some of my best friends a girl could ask for, to having some incredibly stressful situations, I've been through it. And, it's time to start sharing my experiences with others. If someone can learn from the mistakes I've made and the decisions that weren't so great, then this is worth it. Plus, I will be able to look back and have fond memories about my life from here on out.
So, that brings us to now. I'm looking for a new job. In a new city. Away from everything I've ever known. With no one to turn to but a one year old that thinks I am his world.
So, the backstory. Almost 14 months ago I gave birth to the most amazing little boy in the world and my entire life changed. My priorities changed immediately. He is the most important thing to me.
Soon after his birth, I became a single mom in a new town that I disliked more than anything. We moved to Asheville, NC. And, for anyone that knows me, you now that I hate snow and mountains and cold. But, luckily, I found an amazing group of mommies to get me through some of the hardest times of my life.
On top of that, my parents decided to move to Hawaii. They are the reason I came here. I knew I needed some help to get back on my feet. So, I did it. My family is not close at all, but the fact that I came here to have them decide to move across the country is a little overwhelming.
A few months after getting to Asheville, I found an apartment. My best friend at the time talked her parents into renting to me. They have an awesome basement apartment. Aidenn and I love the apartment, but the friendship dwindled. She got angry because I very so nicely let her know that I couldn't have her babysit anymore due to Aidenn's allergies. My child's health and safety is my only concern these days. If her husband's smoking is going to cause Aidenn to be sick constantly, then I'm going to take him out of that situation. What mother wouldn't? Well, I guess that wasn't understandable, and instead of talking to me about it, she dropped me altogether-which shows me we really weren't friends in the first place.
Then, on top of everything, I find out that I may not be able to have any more children. That's right. My world crashed down on me that day. I want to have a little girl to dress up in tutus, oversized flower headbands, and everything pink one day. I love my little boy and don't know what I would do without him, but I want a girl now. So bad. And, to find out that this may not be a possibility is just heartbreaking. I cry every time I think about it. Again, that will be another day and another post.
In the past year, I have had life-changing experiences. From having the most amazing child possible, to making some of my best friends a girl could ask for, to having some incredibly stressful situations, I've been through it. And, it's time to start sharing my experiences with others. If someone can learn from the mistakes I've made and the decisions that weren't so great, then this is worth it. Plus, I will be able to look back and have fond memories about my life from here on out.
So, that brings us to now. I'm looking for a new job. In a new city. Away from everything I've ever known. With no one to turn to but a one year old that thinks I am his world.
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